How to Be a Parent: Be Fearless.

Abby BoidIn this conversation with the eldest, one of the things he said when thinking about happiness is that Mummy’s and Daddy’s keep children safe.

With seven trips to casualty shared pretty equally between three boys, I can only wonder if I’m failing in my role.

Every tear, grazed knee, bloody lip, is a knock to my parenting success. Each time they get injured I think if I were a better parent, they would not have got hurt.

I desperately want to keep my kid safe. Safe from cars, from strangers, from pain, from drugs, from money worries, from broken hearts, from broken arms.

I guess the best way to achieve this would be to keep them close to me at all times, watch them 24/7, dress them in protective clothing, vet all potential future contacts.

As a mother I have a tendency to link their safety, their not getting hurt, their being pain free with their happiness. But my happiest times, those times of pure joy, have come after the most arduous, painful ordeals of my life.

I can still taste that cream egg I ate at the top of the mountain I climbed, after my legs burned, my lungs screamed and my heart throbbed, I can still smell that air, see the mist below me, and that freedom of running down as fast as I could. That was happiness.

I can still see that notice bored with my exam grades on, after working hard, worrying lots, stomach knotted with anxiety and fear of failure. That glowing grade and pride in my work was happiness.

I can still feel that tiny baby, smell the warm sweet tea, hear the soft buzz of the dimmed lights after the harrowing ordeal of giving birth. That was happiness.

Those huge, sweeping, rushes of euphoria  that follow blood, sweat, tears, and taking sometimes ridiculous risks come less as I get older.

Sometimes I miss it. Sometimes I want to go crazy, but I can’t let go like I used to. Perhaps that’s because of the kids. Perhaps it’s something to do with age.

I can’t, however, deny, that I am utterly content with my life, at peace with it.  I doubt I could have reached this contentment without those painful lows and taking some stupid chances.

To keep my children safe, long term, from ill health and apathy and wasted youth and wasted life, I need to teach them to be fearless now and then. Not dumb, not stupid, not reckless but brave.

We all misjudge those risks sometimes. There will always be ‘if only’s’. I hope at these times I am there to catch them when they fall. Sometimes I might not be. That makes my heart lurch, and reach for the lock on the door to the outside world.

I remain sure, though, that the safer we keep them, the more we risk isolating them, denting their self belief, making them disproportionately fearful of the outside world and their ability to influence it. That, to me, sounds very dangerous indeed.

I am not advocating 7 trips to casualty.

But perhaps a little fearlessness here and there, now and then, could make the world a safer place.

Safer for our children.

Safer for all of us.

This is part of my NaNoWriMo challenge.

 

 

 

 

 

7 thoughts on “How to Be a Parent: Be Fearless.

  1. sabretoothedchickenstour says:

    Great post Abby. We all fear for our children. I think that’s natural. We mustn’t let our fears rule us or our children’s lives. It is much harder to overcome fears than to just walk the safe path and give in to them. When we were on our gap year people told us we were courageous. I was a bit unsure of this but on reflection, I guess we were.

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    • Abby Boid says:

      I think you were amazingly fearless in a nurturing, exciting, considered, courageous way. I was going to write ‘lucky kids’, but then when it comes to adventures like yours, a large part of the adventure is realising that you make your own luck.

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